Theme: 5 – First Time
Author's Notes: direct continuation from number 4
Now, here we are, three years later, Kira. I look over my shoulder, and I see your naked body covered by the white linen sheets, asleep. You look peaceful, like your world has finally settled down from the whirlwind it has been at ever since you jumped into the cockpit with Captain Ramius.
I imagine myself beside you like I was an hour ago, my skin bare just like yours. I want to think of myself at that same equilibrium, but I can't. People know about us and are gossiping, despite our best efforts to keep it muffled. I didn't care about them at the beginning, when we first started sneaking those butterfly kisses and I don't care about them now, but, Kira...
I know that this is selfish of me, but I don't want Athrun to find out. Both of our hearts, mine and his, would rip into tiny pieces if he found out.
I love you, more than any words can describe. I don't want to leave like this, don't want to leave you in the lurch, but my plane to Zaft leaves in half an hour.
I know that this is also selfish of me, but I don't want us to continue after I return. I hope that you can understand my reasons for this note and hope that you will someday forgive me for doing this. It only makes the matters worse that today is our birthday, the day where both of us were first together to face this harsh new world.
I wish that we could only face it together again, twenty-one years later.
I just wanted to say that that precious moment we had earlier was my first time. I'm glad it was with you.